Hi there,
Was a Saturday, which is a day of enjoyment and a day of activities.
Stayed at home in the morning, doing the PROJECTS that was going to due next week and the worst part is that nothing is coming into the empty and desert dry brain of mine.
As usual, sending msn messages to her and no reply until some time later, the reply is I was washing my face. when the sms that i received was that she was up an hours ago. Well, I just took her word for it.
Decided with her the place to meet up for the day as she is going to redeem her Kris FLyer mileage for a free ticket.
Meet up at City hall and had lunch at the Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe at Marina Square. NOt a bad place as there is not many people patroning the place. Ordered a Back Pepper Chicken Chop rice and a mug of orange juice while ording a plate of Char Siew Rice with Wanton and a cup of cold barley with the fact that I am having a sore throat and a bad cough. (cold drink is not good for cough).
Chat alot mostly regarding the career fair that was held at NTU. Talking about the type of job opportunities that was available as well as some of the political events. After which we walked or stroll down all the way to Paragon where the Singapore Airline service centre was. Redeemed her ticket and then head down to the Pacific Tower where I had to send my Fossil watch for repair since that the strap gave way. The worst and shocking part is that they dun have the strap and have to order from US which will take around 2-3mths. The first time tat I heard that I have to repair my watch for 2-3mths. Well, accepted the wait and then head of to the DFS which is just next door.
Walked around the place looking and admiring the BRanded stuffs. After which we went to Taka to look for the present for my mother who hapend to be having her birthday on Sunday. Walked around Taka and finally bought a Cat shaped pouch as a present for mother. Stroll around the place for a while before making our walk Paragon to look at some Crumpler bag then to PS where we too a rest and then continued to SUntec where we had our dinner.
After that took the MRT back to Jurong East Interchange where I changed to my route back home. During the ride, chat again, laughter was present just like a couple talking. Listened to the music she had on the ipod which was very vulgarity. The lyrics of the songs is purely cursing and swearing. Apparently she understood some of the phrase but mots of all is the music that is very smoothing
And thats the day spent for a Saturday
TIll next time
Monday, February 9, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
A Mistake
Could I have been mistaken about her?
About her no replying to my msn/sms?
Today I asked her a question, that is :"You are busy?" and the reply she gave me was "yes".
Base solely on this statement I pondered to myself, could I have wrong in saying and thinking all those things? She is busy with her studies as well as her project as well as the submitting of her resume.
In the past, i used to offer my assistance to her but in the end, I was not of any help at all. I was so ashamed of myself. Now I find that I am in no position to say bad things about her when I could not even offer my help to her. The one that I love. That is why I said that I have failed being a boyfriend.
But after that, I do sometimes offer help that is within my ability. Maybe due to that reason she is hesitated in asking me for help.
But sometimes I find her quite arrogant. For instance there was one instance that she required a software for her project in the Uni, I helped her to sourced for the software but the sales engineer need to know some of the details for the project and I related that to her and she replied why is that so troublesome. And just told me to forget about it. How come she dun know that this is the criteria of the sales to ask more about the project that she is working on.
Well, I guess she just want to get what she wants.
Valentine day is coming as all you should know.
Maybe you all have already prepared what to do on that day or might have made reservation for that favorite restaurant to surprise her.
I am still ......................
About her no replying to my msn/sms?
Today I asked her a question, that is :"You are busy?" and the reply she gave me was "yes".
Base solely on this statement I pondered to myself, could I have wrong in saying and thinking all those things? She is busy with her studies as well as her project as well as the submitting of her resume.
In the past, i used to offer my assistance to her but in the end, I was not of any help at all. I was so ashamed of myself. Now I find that I am in no position to say bad things about her when I could not even offer my help to her. The one that I love. That is why I said that I have failed being a boyfriend.
But after that, I do sometimes offer help that is within my ability. Maybe due to that reason she is hesitated in asking me for help.
But sometimes I find her quite arrogant. For instance there was one instance that she required a software for her project in the Uni, I helped her to sourced for the software but the sales engineer need to know some of the details for the project and I related that to her and she replied why is that so troublesome. And just told me to forget about it. How come she dun know that this is the criteria of the sales to ask more about the project that she is working on.
Well, I guess she just want to get what she wants.
Valentine day is coming as all you should know.
Maybe you all have already prepared what to do on that day or might have made reservation for that favorite restaurant to surprise her.
I am still ......................
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Becoming more and more distant
Hi there,
Have been thinking that the distant between me and her is getting further apart each day.
In the past, whenever we see each other online on msn we would exchange greetings and often called each other nick names such as "bao bao" or "wife".
Ever since the trip to China, things have taken a big turn. Now whenever we see each other online, I will still msn her but the reply I get is just a 'en' or no reply at all. Sometimes I wonder why is she being like what she is now? Just because that I will not go to work in China, dunno the etiquette of being a Chinese, the table manners? Or issit the fact that I am not looking towards the futher or not improving myself to get a better pay and higher position instead of doing these things that i am doing now? Yes I know that I am not like her so capable of studying to the level of Masters nor have the good memory/knowledge. But there is always a limit to each individual. I know I have definitely fail in all aspects.
Whenever I say things like these she will always say that I think too much and then she will get angry. Did she ever think that what make me say these words? Always saying how bad here is, how troublesome it is how crazy the government is. And always say that she will go back to China to find a Job which is better than finding one here. Then why in the first place did you chose to study here? Because of me? If thats the case I rather not, why come to a place to study when you dun even enjoy? I am happy that you chose to come here to study because of me but I rather you go to a place and study where you are happy.
Getting more and more stress. Homework is getting no where and to make thing worst is due in a weeks time. How lucky can that be?
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Time Is coming to an End
Hi there once again,
My female friend has came back from her mother country on the 28th f Jan which is the 3rd day of Chinese New Year. Was still deciding whether or not should I go and fetch her from the airport, but after having a wonderful afternoon tea with my sec. friend decided to go and fetch her after all.
Went down to the airport at around 1830hrs, had a large fries at Mac before going to the sit around the arrival hall to await for her arrival. During the period of waiting for the confirmation of the landing of the aircraft, many thoughts was going through my mind. What will her reaction be like if she saw me here? Was coming here to fetch her correct? Could she has expected that I would not have come to fetch her? and so on. But I told myself that well since I have decided to come and fetch her, I should not bother so much.
Soon at 1903hrs the plane has landed, and I waited patiently for her to come out.
She came out through the opening of the clear glass door, was in front of her and some how she did not notice me for a sec. Maybe is due to the change of my hairstyle. Well, the reaction she shown was just a smile and that how come I did not tell her that I am coming to fetch her. I just smiled and said to surprise u.
After she has came back, I notice that there is a delay in her replying the sms as well as the messages on msn that I send her. Cannot help thinking that she is like avoiding me. Maybe she is just busy with her studies. When I asked if she got received the sms, the reply I get from her is always the same: "I did not noticed it." Common, even if you have set the phone to silent mode the vibratioin of the phone should still be able to notify you that you have a message. For the msn, she could take ages to reply me or even not go online. Remember that she once told me that she seldom or will not reply to msn. Then once i was at her place she was like replying to the msn as well as QQ. Linking all these together is like giving me quite a clear picture that she is avoiding me and maybe a sign of telling me that the time for this relationship is coming to an end.
Maybe this is the retribution for me for hurting her so many times in the past. I think I may not cut out to be a good bf. Sometimes I even think that going out on the Sat for her is just to clear her mind of the studies nothing else.
Well, take a step at a time then.
Till next time then.
My female friend has came back from her mother country on the 28th f Jan which is the 3rd day of Chinese New Year. Was still deciding whether or not should I go and fetch her from the airport, but after having a wonderful afternoon tea with my sec. friend decided to go and fetch her after all.
Went down to the airport at around 1830hrs, had a large fries at Mac before going to the sit around the arrival hall to await for her arrival. During the period of waiting for the confirmation of the landing of the aircraft, many thoughts was going through my mind. What will her reaction be like if she saw me here? Was coming here to fetch her correct? Could she has expected that I would not have come to fetch her? and so on. But I told myself that well since I have decided to come and fetch her, I should not bother so much.
Soon at 1903hrs the plane has landed, and I waited patiently for her to come out.
She came out through the opening of the clear glass door, was in front of her and some how she did not notice me for a sec. Maybe is due to the change of my hairstyle. Well, the reaction she shown was just a smile and that how come I did not tell her that I am coming to fetch her. I just smiled and said to surprise u.
After she has came back, I notice that there is a delay in her replying the sms as well as the messages on msn that I send her. Cannot help thinking that she is like avoiding me. Maybe she is just busy with her studies. When I asked if she got received the sms, the reply I get from her is always the same: "I did not noticed it." Common, even if you have set the phone to silent mode the vibratioin of the phone should still be able to notify you that you have a message. For the msn, she could take ages to reply me or even not go online. Remember that she once told me that she seldom or will not reply to msn. Then once i was at her place she was like replying to the msn as well as QQ. Linking all these together is like giving me quite a clear picture that she is avoiding me and maybe a sign of telling me that the time for this relationship is coming to an end.
Maybe this is the retribution for me for hurting her so many times in the past. I think I may not cut out to be a good bf. Sometimes I even think that going out on the Sat for her is just to clear her mind of the studies nothing else.
Well, take a step at a time then.
Till next time then.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Arrival Of the"Earth Cow"
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL
sO how was Chinese New Year been for all of you out there? Good and delicious I presume. Good in the way that there is holiday, catching up relatives and friends that you have last met, buying new clothes although this is an on going event for most of us and not to mention the portion where "Ang Pow" is given and received.
Yes indeed this is a start of a brand new year accordance to the lunar calendar. So many customs to follow and for us to remember them for that is our identity.
All of us must be busy visiting and eating and playing. But also do watch out for health and also to practice cautious especially to those who are driving as during the festive season each of us will tend to drink a little.
Well although is good to have holiday and to get together with families. I on the other hand feel that yes this is a happy occasion but somehow I just feel that the family ties for me with the family is not that strong. Within me I always felt that I do not belong to the family. I know that all of you will be saying that I am wrong to say that as no matter what family will still be family as this is the fact. Nothing can defeat that. Yes I do know that this is the fact but just cannot help to have that feeling. I think it all come down to myself, as it is what I am thinking. Therefore, it is something that I myself have to handle and change that mindset.
Knowing all this and yet I did not do anything about it is my fault. Just hope that this Cow year will prove to be a better year. As until this very moment, I am still blur about the vision for my future.
Take Care young man
sO how was Chinese New Year been for all of you out there? Good and delicious I presume. Good in the way that there is holiday, catching up relatives and friends that you have last met, buying new clothes although this is an on going event for most of us and not to mention the portion where "Ang Pow" is given and received.
Yes indeed this is a start of a brand new year accordance to the lunar calendar. So many customs to follow and for us to remember them for that is our identity.
All of us must be busy visiting and eating and playing. But also do watch out for health and also to practice cautious especially to those who are driving as during the festive season each of us will tend to drink a little.
Well although is good to have holiday and to get together with families. I on the other hand feel that yes this is a happy occasion but somehow I just feel that the family ties for me with the family is not that strong. Within me I always felt that I do not belong to the family. I know that all of you will be saying that I am wrong to say that as no matter what family will still be family as this is the fact. Nothing can defeat that. Yes I do know that this is the fact but just cannot help to have that feeling. I think it all come down to myself, as it is what I am thinking. Therefore, it is something that I myself have to handle and change that mindset.
Knowing all this and yet I did not do anything about it is my fault. Just hope that this Cow year will prove to be a better year. As until this very moment, I am still blur about the vision for my future.
Take Care young man
Saturday, January 24, 2009
2009 The Year of the Cow
Hi there stranger,
Tomorrow according to the lunar year is the last day of 2008.
Well, now that the year is coming to an end , we should plan ahead and wish for a better lifestyle and year.
Birthday just passed like a week ago, and somehow is that I dun feel much happiness in this year's birthday. Maybe is due to the trip that I have taken or maybe it was some other stuff. What the hag. The actual day of my birthday, I have to work which is a setback, no one actually remembered beside family and a couple of friends. Well what can you expect for someone who has such a small social circle, shame on me for complaining.
The most happiest that happen was that a simple "Happy Birthday " send to me through msn at the moment the digital number of the clock at the task bar was set to 00:00:00. It was just a simple msn from her to me. I was so touched since it was the first time that I received these words.
There was this debate that was going on within me regarding whether i was born in the year of the dog or the rooster. According to the calender, those born of 1982 is of the animal "Dog" but accordance to the lunar calender, on the day of my birthday it was still 1981 and have not been the new year. Therefore I am born of the rooster instead of a dog. According to the facebook application, that year for me I was the metal rooster. My parents then indicated to me that i was of the head of the dog and the bottom of the rooster. So that ended the debate. The conclusion is that I was born of head of the dog and bottom of the rooster.
In the rest of the year of 2009, have to attend quite a number of weddings. I was envy with my friend who have married. The reason of my envy was that they have earn enought to start a family while i have just started to step into the working world. How long will it be my turn to start a family or perhaps i may be single for what i may know.
Well, putting that aside.
I hereby wishes all of you my friends a very Happy Niu Year.
May you be wealthy, healthyall year round.
Tomorrow according to the lunar year is the last day of 2008.
Well, now that the year is coming to an end , we should plan ahead and wish for a better lifestyle and year.
Birthday just passed like a week ago, and somehow is that I dun feel much happiness in this year's birthday. Maybe is due to the trip that I have taken or maybe it was some other stuff. What the hag. The actual day of my birthday, I have to work which is a setback, no one actually remembered beside family and a couple of friends. Well what can you expect for someone who has such a small social circle, shame on me for complaining.
The most happiest that happen was that a simple "Happy Birthday " send to me through msn at the moment the digital number of the clock at the task bar was set to 00:00:00. It was just a simple msn from her to me. I was so touched since it was the first time that I received these words.
There was this debate that was going on within me regarding whether i was born in the year of the dog or the rooster. According to the calender, those born of 1982 is of the animal "Dog" but accordance to the lunar calender, on the day of my birthday it was still 1981 and have not been the new year. Therefore I am born of the rooster instead of a dog. According to the facebook application, that year for me I was the metal rooster. My parents then indicated to me that i was of the head of the dog and the bottom of the rooster. So that ended the debate. The conclusion is that I was born of head of the dog and bottom of the rooster.
In the rest of the year of 2009, have to attend quite a number of weddings. I was envy with my friend who have married. The reason of my envy was that they have earn enought to start a family while i have just started to step into the working world. How long will it be my turn to start a family or perhaps i may be single for what i may know.
Well, putting that aside.
I hereby wishes all of you my friends a very Happy Niu Year.
May you be wealthy, healthyall year round.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
The Past?The Present?The Future?
Hello there stranger,
Welcome to the 'Niu' Year of 2009.
All these years have been in local to celebrate the crossing over to the year but this time round I was out of the country and was in China during the crossing over to the year 2009.
Going over to China was supposedly to be a very happy event for me as I have been waiting for this time ever since the start of 2008. But having gone to China, I felt within me a seed of sadness been planted and sprouting. Things have happened while the stay over there. I was happy at first having to meet up with the person who is the local there. Great hospitality to the extend that I feel very uneasy.
Upon arrival at Pudong Airport, we went to take the long distance bus to Hang Zhou, which is the destination for my trip. After settling down at the hotel, went for a dinner at one of the relatives place and I think the first impression that I gave them was that I was not much of a drinker nor a speaker. I feel very uneasy, as the dialect which they are speaking is foreign to me and that they can speak of any topic.
This event of meeting ppl for meals carried on throughout the whole period of time while i was there except for the last 2 days. Where I walk around on my own and eating meals as and when I feel appropriate. This is something that I feel easy about. Having company for meals are ok but for the people in China I think if they were to sit down and have a meal with me they will regret it and will boycott me from inviting to a meal. The reason is that I cannot drink/smoke nor speak. These 3 things are the most common things that one will face in China.
China citizens also honor the 5Cs as that of Singapore, which are Cash/Condo/Career/Car/Card. In China, for guys the parents will make the downpayment for the flat for them while the monthly installment will be settled by the Son. Only then will they be able to get a wife. Another thing is that the position you hold in the company or the salary that you are currently earning. The real estate price in China is so scary that you really need to have a high paying salary in order to support the family or the housing loan.
Thats why we can see that China people are able to spend on things so often without hesitation.
What lies in the future? It is unknown, but if you were to work hard and pave out your path then the future will be known.
Present is current. The current status issit satisfying to you? what can be done to make it a better one for a better tomorrow?
Past is over. Do not dwel in that but look forward.
Having said the above is very contradicting as I never did those things.
But for the 2009 new year resolution, those things will be the one that I will strive to do.
Do take care.
The Tough Get Going.
Welcome to the 'Niu' Year of 2009.
All these years have been in local to celebrate the crossing over to the year but this time round I was out of the country and was in China during the crossing over to the year 2009.
Going over to China was supposedly to be a very happy event for me as I have been waiting for this time ever since the start of 2008. But having gone to China, I felt within me a seed of sadness been planted and sprouting. Things have happened while the stay over there. I was happy at first having to meet up with the person who is the local there. Great hospitality to the extend that I feel very uneasy.
Upon arrival at Pudong Airport, we went to take the long distance bus to Hang Zhou, which is the destination for my trip. After settling down at the hotel, went for a dinner at one of the relatives place and I think the first impression that I gave them was that I was not much of a drinker nor a speaker. I feel very uneasy, as the dialect which they are speaking is foreign to me and that they can speak of any topic.
This event of meeting ppl for meals carried on throughout the whole period of time while i was there except for the last 2 days. Where I walk around on my own and eating meals as and when I feel appropriate. This is something that I feel easy about. Having company for meals are ok but for the people in China I think if they were to sit down and have a meal with me they will regret it and will boycott me from inviting to a meal. The reason is that I cannot drink/smoke nor speak. These 3 things are the most common things that one will face in China.
China citizens also honor the 5Cs as that of Singapore, which are Cash/Condo/Career/Car/Card. In China, for guys the parents will make the downpayment for the flat for them while the monthly installment will be settled by the Son. Only then will they be able to get a wife. Another thing is that the position you hold in the company or the salary that you are currently earning. The real estate price in China is so scary that you really need to have a high paying salary in order to support the family or the housing loan.
Thats why we can see that China people are able to spend on things so often without hesitation.
What lies in the future? It is unknown, but if you were to work hard and pave out your path then the future will be known.
Present is current. The current status issit satisfying to you? what can be done to make it a better one for a better tomorrow?
Past is over. Do not dwel in that but look forward.
Having said the above is very contradicting as I never did those things.
But for the 2009 new year resolution, those things will be the one that I will strive to do.
Do take care.
The Tough Get Going.
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