Seeing that many of friends doing well, and some even able to get freelance jobs. Upon seeing them, things keep running into my mind.
"Why can they get freelance so easily?"
"Am I too damn coward to communicate to others to get freelance?"
"Where do they get these freelance from?"
"Guess my social circle is not wide enough"
"My skills are not as good as them to get freelance. Which I think is true"
"WHY ARE THEY SO SUCCESSFUL IN THEIR LIFE."
These are the things that keep hovering within me. All these times I have been thinking what is my purpose in life? Ever since I got my hands on DSLR, I thought to myself this is the thing that i wan to be. A photojournalist, freelancing, taking down memories of others through my view finder? Having to know Jason, my photography lecturer also increase my skills and also enjoy discussing with him about his knowledge on this field.
Also got to know a group of photographers whom I enjoyed the company. Learn lots of new things as well as the different view to see things. Looking at their shoots do motivate me to "copy" their shots and perceive the view they see when taking the shot. Another person who motivate me is Jingna aka zemotion. I came across this talented young lady while browsing through Deviantart. An online art community where people from all around the work come together to showcase their works as well to discuss. Came across her fashion photography and from there I started to keep track of her works. The works are ever so stunning and fascinating that make me wonder how she does it. It has always been a dream of mine to be at the set when she is taking the shots to see how she shots and how to communicate with the models to execute out the kind of shots that she produce. It was this shot that capture me.
From then on, has been following her works.
As i was doing my part time studies in ISDT on diploma of Multimedia design, the thought of mixing both photography and design together was what i wanted to do. Something like a digital photo montage. But till date have yet the ability to produce wat i dream of. Got to know friend in process of learning and they come from different aspect of life. Being with them seems like a good choice to learn but on the other hand is making me thinking if my passion is the same as them or the same as before.
Taking a step back and thinking, I find that my passion has gradually moved over to photography which I keep denying that I am not. The fact is that I still do like to design and some wat of doing the photomontaging.
Well, having to complete my course, now is preparing my portfolio and I find that I have more picture than design which is a very head aching part for me. I am studying multimedia and yet I have more photos than design. So have to think of more design to come up with but so far have none except for the previous one which I have uploaded. Do have some idea in my mind, but Haiz there is laziness in me. Well have to slap me on the face to wake myself up. Anyone care to help me?
Work is getting very very much the same and boring since there is not many projects that the company is getting except for the servicing portion. Well, just have to learn to do all these things as this is wat the real world is.
Looking at other with their partners together chatting and laughing and giving things to each other made me wonder about mine. Chatting and laughing yes i agree which we do if not how would we communicate. The latter part seems erm not tat much of each other but to her. Well, I am just happy with the happy look on her face when she received them. (taking a rock and smashing my toe)
Well, wat do you say after reading this?
As i was doing my part time studies in ISDT on diploma of Multimedia design, the thought of mixing both photography and design together was what i wanted to do. Something like a digital photo montage. But till date have yet the ability to produce wat i dream of. Got to know friend in process of learning and they come from different aspect of life. Being with them seems like a good choice to learn but on the other hand is making me thinking if my passion is the same as them or the same as before.
Taking a step back and thinking, I find that my passion has gradually moved over to photography which I keep denying that I am not. The fact is that I still do like to design and some wat of doing the photomontaging.
Well, having to complete my course, now is preparing my portfolio and I find that I have more picture than design which is a very head aching part for me. I am studying multimedia and yet I have more photos than design. So have to think of more design to come up with but so far have none except for the previous one which I have uploaded. Do have some idea in my mind, but Haiz there is laziness in me. Well have to slap me on the face to wake myself up. Anyone care to help me?
Work is getting very very much the same and boring since there is not many projects that the company is getting except for the servicing portion. Well, just have to learn to do all these things as this is wat the real world is.
Looking at other with their partners together chatting and laughing and giving things to each other made me wonder about mine. Chatting and laughing yes i agree which we do if not how would we communicate. The latter part seems erm not tat much of each other but to her. Well, I am just happy with the happy look on her face when she received them. (taking a rock and smashing my toe)
Well, wat do you say after reading this?
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