Something I m troubled

Well, hi all.
You must be thinking why am I blogging on a weekday since I use to be blogging during the last day of the week.
Well, is just that something has been really bothering me and dun wish to bottle it within me as I am afraid that something will go wrong with me like what I did during the army days.

Well, back to this things that is very very confusing and troubling me.
"I" is back from the holiday. Somehow I feel that there is a distance between us, but I am just sure cos that feeling only comes when she and I are talking on MSN or smsing. When we are face to face talking, everything is just like friends and not like in a relationship.

Before she came back, she indicated to me why must she come back. I know that this means that she will go back no matter wat. Friends told me that they dun think that this relationship will last since that she will go back no matter what. I know that "I" wans me to go over there but finding job over there is not as easy as there is more of the IT based company. Beside, "I" can easily find a job with a word from the father.

Should this relationship end before it is too late?
I remember once in Aus when "I" and I was quarrling, she told me that once we break up there is not even a chance of being friends. There will be no communication between us. I wonder if she has ever loved me?

Wat you think? My friend told me that this could be just a feeling that we have while in Aus and continued over here. Once she is back in her country, she may find someone and since we are in 2 diff country, who knows.

Oh dear readers, what do you advise me?
I am afraid that this is a one sided relationship. But she is a gal that once she is in a relationship she will not betray, tats what her friend say.