This week is a very damn and not my day week.
Throughout the week, at work I was like been thrown with alot of work and the worst part is that the supervisor who was suppose to teach me just throw me the damn thing and expect me to know it without any guidance. What the hell.
He is the one who has gone through the training for the insturments that we are handling and servicing, and he only taught me 1 instrument of the whole range. Everytime ask him he will say just read the manual, do according to the manual. If everything is according to the manual, then why the hell do the customers need us to troubleshoot it?
Last week was also tackling a unit which was a killer and headache for me. I was sad by the words he say:"You dunno know how to read the email? Did you read the email carefully? Why cant you follow the steps stated in the email" How i was to say to him that, your email is not clear, and how am I suppose to know what is what!!!!!!!!!
But i have just to endure it as I am just a employee and I am just piss off that the salary I am taking if not even worth the work that I am doing. Pay so little, do so many work altough there is flexiblilty.
I am damned so going to change job. I cannot handle this company already, the management level sucks, ppl do their own things.
Sat went to took macro shoots with a group of photographers. Learnt alot from them but the attachment was too little to share around and take the macro shoots so i just walked around and observe how ppl take the shoots. Took 1 shot of the macro and was quite nice. Damned the posion is coming already. The posion of macro.
Later the in the day went to take fireworks again. Yes again, many will think tat i am crazy to take fireworks for such continuous sat. Well, I treat it as a form to practice and honing my accuracy. I am sorry that I made a mistake in the timing of the firework when I told a friend and made her miss the fireworx.
Well do enjoy the following fireworks pic.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Moody/Gloomy
Ever since L went back to the country for holidays, life seems to be quite empty. Am I too deep into L? This always happen when L goes back for holidays, sms and msn seems very rare and sometimes to the zitch(nil).
The only thing that L sms me is to help to harvest and plant things on the online game. Am I only remembered when such things are need to be done? Many ppl told me that I should stop and back up abit, but I think the depth is quite deep for me to back up. Well, currently I believed that I have been taking a step at a time. The words tat L said keeps appearing in my mind and that is wat making me to take a step at a time. "No matter what I will still go back." Sometimes I wonder since this is the case why did L in the first place came here to study? If nothing here is worth for L to stay then why come? Still have to be bonded for 3yrs to pay off the tution loan. I really dun understand.
The funny thing is that even with this sentence that L said, I still like L and is like I only have 3 yrs to live with L beside me. Am I stupid in thinking so? Too traditional guy am I? Seeing the couple beside me whom just got together recently, I find them very different from L n me. Could it be that we are from different country and that the thinking is totally different? During the times in australia, L and I seems to think similar in some way but sometimes do have lots and lots of conflict.
Have hurt L so much, began to think back and reflect. Changed from the time I was in Aus and now. Well, at least I tend to listen to wat ppl say, change my attitude, smile more often(which some say I have yet done so)
Well, L is coming back soon and I am anxious to see her but on the other hand I am holding back.
Wat am i suppose to do?
Someone helpppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The only thing that L sms me is to help to harvest and plant things on the online game. Am I only remembered when such things are need to be done? Many ppl told me that I should stop and back up abit, but I think the depth is quite deep for me to back up. Well, currently I believed that I have been taking a step at a time. The words tat L said keeps appearing in my mind and that is wat making me to take a step at a time. "No matter what I will still go back." Sometimes I wonder since this is the case why did L in the first place came here to study? If nothing here is worth for L to stay then why come? Still have to be bonded for 3yrs to pay off the tution loan. I really dun understand.
The funny thing is that even with this sentence that L said, I still like L and is like I only have 3 yrs to live with L beside me. Am I stupid in thinking so? Too traditional guy am I? Seeing the couple beside me whom just got together recently, I find them very different from L n me. Could it be that we are from different country and that the thinking is totally different? During the times in australia, L and I seems to think similar in some way but sometimes do have lots and lots of conflict.
Have hurt L so much, began to think back and reflect. Changed from the time I was in Aus and now. Well, at least I tend to listen to wat ppl say, change my attitude, smile more often(which some say I have yet done so)
Well, L is coming back soon and I am anxious to see her but on the other hand I am holding back.
Wat am i suppose to do?
Someone helpppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How true
Have been very busy with shooting and has caused me to rethink and ponder what is going on with me. Is this a sudden interest in shooting or am i really wish to improve myself and venture into this field.
Frankly speaking, the interest and passion I have for photography and design is strong. BUt just that I find that I don make use of them like practicing them as much as I can.
Like wat a friend lectured me, knowing is the 1st portion and doing is the 2nd portion. Now that I have the 1st portion, its bloody hell time for me to proceed to the 2nd portion instead of saying that I have not improve nor say that other works are better than me.
Like my lecturer said, I take criticism to hard, which is my stumbling block. I think I have set to high my expectation and should try to take criticism not too hard.
They say that they can see that I have the passion for the design and I have the artistically side and I should work towards the envision which I forsee myself. I should take things slow and that the improvement might be faster ..... they say. This i agree, I myself is a very anxious guy.
I should learn how to slow down.
Haiz so many things to teach myself.
To change for the better. I hope.
Do give me your support.
Frankly speaking, the interest and passion I have for photography and design is strong. BUt just that I find that I don make use of them like practicing them as much as I can.
Like wat a friend lectured me, knowing is the 1st portion and doing is the 2nd portion. Now that I have the 1st portion, its bloody hell time for me to proceed to the 2nd portion instead of saying that I have not improve nor say that other works are better than me.
Like my lecturer said, I take criticism to hard, which is my stumbling block. I think I have set to high my expectation and should try to take criticism not too hard.
They say that they can see that I have the passion for the design and I have the artistically side and I should work towards the envision which I forsee myself. I should take things slow and that the improvement might be faster ..... they say. This i agree, I myself is a very anxious guy.
I should learn how to slow down.
Haiz so many things to teach myself.
To change for the better. I hope.
Do give me your support.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Haiz again
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Haiz
Is another boring week for me.
I have been thinking again on what my dreams are really meant.
I know I have been through this things once again too many times. Looking at my friends blog and seeing them produce such stunning and breathe taking works, make me wonder why did I chose to take up the Multimedia Design Course when I seldom practice what I have learn from there?
Did I take that path just for the sake of taking?
I am really truly very confuse as to what is the direction which I am heading.
At work, I am just a taker. Whatever they tell me to do, I do. I like to defend myself to the max when talking to them which I know is not the correct way to do in the working world.
Want to change job but none that is interesting. Going into another line also make me wonder if I am really up to that challenge?
I am really in a state of confusion.
I think i will need to borrow a pic that is done by my friend.
I need to credit him for making such a piece which suit the mood and feeling that I am in now.
So "Yosh, I hope you dun mind me using your pic here in my blog"(I using it already)
I have been thinking again on what my dreams are really meant.
I know I have been through this things once again too many times. Looking at my friends blog and seeing them produce such stunning and breathe taking works, make me wonder why did I chose to take up the Multimedia Design Course when I seldom practice what I have learn from there?
Did I take that path just for the sake of taking?
I am really truly very confuse as to what is the direction which I am heading.
At work, I am just a taker. Whatever they tell me to do, I do. I like to defend myself to the max when talking to them which I know is not the correct way to do in the working world.
Want to change job but none that is interesting. Going into another line also make me wonder if I am really up to that challenge?
I am really in a state of confusion.
I think i will need to borrow a pic that is done by my friend.
I need to credit him for making such a piece which suit the mood and feeling that I am in now.
So "Yosh, I hope you dun mind me using your pic here in my blog"(I using it already)
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